Dear Unsure,
Be thee of good cheer. You do get it; don't believe for a minute that you don't. If you still want convincing, though, that art is best when it is unspecified, ambiguous, and open to your own experience, then read this guy: He's a Guy, a Published Guy, and I hope you will take all the powerful consensus and proof inherent in his Position As Such and believe this Man. He pretty much explains everything in detail, and leaves no doubt.
I just confirmed these facts myself yesterday with a young woman artist of my acquaintance and I almost kissed her for acknowledging the intuitive, non-linear, and unconscious aspects of her own art-making, or what could be called her 'creative process.' I am a bit fed up with the term 'creative process,' because it has too much airplay for my tastes, but it serves in a pinch.
You see, we wander around, more or less in the darkened gloom, and once in a rare while, we bump into someone or something who confirms that yes, we are wandering in the dark here, and the contact is a genuine cause for celebration, because isn't it a kind of miracle that people who cannot see where and why they are going should agree on something? Here's to agreement on un-knowing, then, I hope?
PS
It's nothing against guys, you know, per se, it's just a teensy bit niggling that I am still unable to persuade by methods of brute force and 'gender superiority' alone and if you think I am being a bit too flip, check the most recent stats: https://www.aauw.org/research/the-simple-truth-about-the-gender-pay-gap/
